Regrettable Similes[old and invalid]

I should’ve thought of you

I was selfish, I can’t believe what i did

I’m regretting it now, all too late

knowing I’m all but a bittersweet memory

a regrettable simile to what could’ve been

I can’t stand knowing what i’ve done to you

and the salt from my tears is a burning reminder of where we’ve been

so just let me go, into my world of no reality

let me pretend it didn’t happen

and hold me again,

just hold me again

take me in your arms because there’s no where I’d rather be

serving as that bittersweet memory

and now all I can do is wait

watch you go along with a separate fate 

dreaming of you isn’t enough to save me from the ghosts that haunt me now

I keep rereading the words you wrote in notes intended for a future

and rethinking the memories like fallen snowflakes; all one of a kind 

my foolish mistakes and all you did for me 

and all I didn’t do for you

I don’t regret much, but if tomorrow was my dying day

you would be first on the list in all caps

because I was dumb enough to let something so amazing slip through my fingers like burning grains of timeless sand