Inevitable Hanging

Tied around my neck like a noose just waiting to devour 

I can't let you pull me under

But you're so attractive in your eloquence

I can't see why it matters

Above or below, I'm still trapped

Mismatched faces and personalities arrange themselves in mazes 

I'm struggling to make it out alive

Scars will place themselves decisively on my body

But it only shows how far I've come

Keep me out 

Let me in

I'm going to stay the same person with only a different perspective

Opinions and facts mix and stumble

Deciphering is almost impossible

Inevitably you judge

Inevitably I walk away

Off the cliffs of your beachside resort

And I can't wait until I hit the lowly rocks and sand

It'll be more satisfying than levitating above the feeling of stable ground.

9th in the State

1st on our feet. Chino Hills girls cross country; this season is OURS.

Driving Emotions

Like driving a car, except you don't need a license. 

Changing lanes, but being careful not to hit anything or anyone else. 

Stopping at red lights. Going at green. Slowing down with the yellow.

Pausing at stop signs. 

Accelerating.

Breaking.

Pulling over.

Swerving.

Hydroplaning.

Skidding. 

Gliding.

My emotions are driving me over speed bumps less than subtly, have me hydroplaning over unknown territory, are causing me to pause when not necessary, and keep me pulling over for reassurance. They are accelerating me past things that no longer serve a purpose in my life, whether I like it or not. They're swerving me around people I've lost respect for. But mostly, they have me changing lanes, without care or concern to where I'm going, who I'm leaving, or what I'm deserting.

Hidden Track

You've been askin' 
I've been drinkin' 
Thinkin about this godforsaken life I lead 
It's a memory, I made it be 
My lips went white, my spine teased tight 
I realized it was gonna be a long night 
Buttons prove to be sexier in moments like these 
Sexier in moments like these 
This is love, and this is lust 
I made it to be the best 
And if I were to be the best, maybe you would trust 
This is love, and this is lust 
Which one do I trust?

-Hidden Track by: Cute Is What We Aim For

Prop 8

So tonight on the way to Pinkberry from BJ's with Chloe, Genevieve, and Alex, we happened to see a prop 8 street rally. Alex yelled at the the Vote Yes people of course, and then we saw the Vote No corner, and decided we should join. So after we snagged some delicious frozen yogurt, we jumped in the car and drove down to the corner of Edison and Pipeline, blasting Kylie Minogue the whole time. We jump out, get to the vote no corner and are warmly welcomed by the 5 or 6 people on that corner. Now there are 4 corners, 3 of which are occupied by vote no (wooo!), and one with vote yes(boo!). The people introduce themselves and hand us some signs. So we're yelling and bouncing around with our signs, getting honks from cars, whether they be for it or not. Chloe manages to get into a couple arguments, and of course blows the people out of the water, because she's Mama Chloe and she can do that. Genevieve, Alex, and I are all yelling and laughing at each other and Chloe, and having a blast. Taylor, Alex(different one), and Justin show up with glow sticks, and great sarcasm for the cause. We're all buzzing on adrenaline and just the feeling to be out in the world doing something big for people, so we're all laughing and jumping and screaming. Needless to say; GREAT NIGHT. I'm still pumped and it's 3 hours after the fact.--

I just don't get how people can be so ignorant and intolerant. We're all human, there's no need for unequal rights. Ever read the first sentence of the Constitution? They either haven't, or just like to disregard what they've read. Yes marriage is TRADITIONALLY between a man and a woman. Yes, our country is one very much involved with tradition, but once in a while, tradition's going to have to break for things to work out. It's going back to the American Dream (dear lord, save me), and the dream of Utopian society. Perfection was goal. And so is this what we're going for now? Who says that gay marriage is going to ruin perfection. Is it a flaw? Are gay people flaws in the world? I don't think so; they're just as human as everyone else. Love is love; if it happens to be between two people of the same sex, then so be it. They deserve the same rights everyone else does, even if they're not the "traditional family". Discrimination against them is totally uncalled for and unnecessary. But that's how our society works it seems. There always has to be a group that is inferior to the rest of the population. Why? Is that what's to be done to feel powerful and superior? It's just plain stupid. We're all the same. Sometimes it's skin color. Put us all in black and white; it's all just different shades of gray. Sometimes it's religion. Put us all in one religious place for lack of a more mutual word; we all worship a common something. Sometimes it's sexual orientation. Put us all in a city, a state, a country; we all love a person, whether they be woman or man. So what's the huge deal. You're not being harmed. Society is not being harmed. No one is being harmed from someone loving someone of the same sex. It's stupid discrimination that shouldn't even be happening. I know there's so many more things that go into consideration about Prop 8 that I may not be covering. But when it really comes down to it, it's all based here, with constitutional rights, equality, and the difference of ideas. 

Vote No on Prop 8.